final stretch. and some major changes.

here we are, the final stretch of this pregnancy...

i know - i have neglected the blog world lately. my life has been insane. work has been very demanding. getting ready for a baby is more work than i ever imagined. i sleep like it is my second job. and well, i haven't had much to say lately.

however, here we are. on the verge of becoming parents to a little baby. scary? yes. exciting? yes. nervous? a bit. but, i am trusting in the Lord. i can't believe we will be a family of three in a few short weeks...

and yes, being pregnant brings many different emotions. one moment i am so happy and the next, i am full of tears. i don't know if it is just life decisions being made or just the final weeks of pregnancy, but these days have been pretty rough. when i was making life decisions by myself, i thought it was the hardest thing. but now add another person, and soon, three...

we have all made some pretty tough decisions in our lives that can impact not only our lives but the lives of others - and let me tell you... i have shed thousands of tears from it. you know when you are so deeply involved in something and your life is so impacted by it that the thought of doing something different almost brings anxiety? it is like i am scared of change. scared of the future. unsure what the Lord has planned. and while i am trying my hardest to trust Him and continue to ask for peace... my heart is still so burdened.

so here am i today. heavy-hearted. and after spending some quality, tearful moments with the Lord this morning the fact is, i am still not at full peace about it. and when you are making a decision with someone else in mind, and now two, it is even makes this whole situation that much harder.

so i continue to mediated on His Word. psalm 27:7 one of my favorite verses: Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him... so i do wait. and i wait patiently. i know He will show and give me the peace that surpasses all understanding at the right time.

I Have Come to Grips That I Am...

A HUGE PROCRASTINATOR!

I always wait till the last minute to do and get things done and I am changing this once and for all. My new goal this year (a little "Spring Cleaning" in my life) is to be more on top of things like birthdays, thank you cards, or not waiting three days before we need to get out to start packng up our entire apartment - you know, things like that.

Don't you hate that feeling? When you are racing against time to get something done that it affects everything else in your life, even people? Well, I quit Procrastination. No mas.

Things I am going to start doing:

1. Write down people's birthdays and get their present (if I really like you) or a simple card a week in advance and write in it right away. Next birthday: Mine. May 28th. I won't procrastinate on that one. :)

2. Appreciation Cards/Thank You Cards/Etc. --- I LOVE getting and giving cards, but am awful at getting them out. I probably have started about 10 cards that I never finished -- or the 15 blog posts that I have saved in my draft file because I never got around to finish them . . . I procastinated and then, they are wayyyy to late to send or post. Fail.

3. Deadlines - like Moving. :) I take full responsibility on this whole moving fiasco. So, whenever we move again - probably when our house is full of the pitter patter of tiny little feet we will move on to bigger and better things and I will be 100% prepared. Speaking of moving, not children - blog post and pics to come. :)

4. Things I sign up for. You know when you sign up for things way in advance and then remember like, hum... the day before? Yeah, that is me. My intensions are always great, but my execution slightly fails.

Well, there are many more, but I am glad to say that I have left the fail train and onto a new and refreshing start in my life. No more procastination. (Sigh of relief)

And, yes --- I promise to be back for awhile.